Sunday, August 24, 2008

我的特别的爱, 给特别的你!

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特别的爱给特别的你~

我的寂寞逃不过你的眼睛~~~~~~

特别的爱给特别的你~~

你让我越来越不相信自己~~ wooo~


我谈恋爱了~~~~!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!











..........假的!=P
其实我还是单身...让你们太失望了吗?.. 哈哈..感情的事是要慢慢来的..也没关系啊.....
重点是我现在就是就是就是就是就是就是很想吃 KWAY TEOWWWWWW !!!!!!!!

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Im backie!

Hello everyone, soul is back in melbourne! or has been back for almost 2 weeks!
Havent been doing too much stuffs except been busy with uni and cleaning the house(its dirty as hell when i got back!) , believe it or not, i hardly eat outside now except for lunch! and i been cooking for almost every dinner! yeah!

Today is sunday, its the end of 2nd week and ive completed one assignment already, oh yeah~ theres going to be an easter break and also a mid-sem break? what the heck uni jus started and we got a 1 week mid break? we're going to have alot to catch up...bloody hell...

Also yesterday i signed up for 3's $29 cap plan which lasts for 24months!(2years omg!) i got it because i (i) optus sucks my prepaid credit like crazy (ii)the plan's rates are pretty good and suits me (iii)i need a phone that can store more than 100sms, my w810 cant do that and i dont think hacking the firmware is a good idea, so they gave me a E65

I finished FFIX again for the atleast 50th time yesterday, it took me one week to do it this time. I might start playing FF7 soon maybe later today but i dont know, once i go i have to keep going, i shud start concentrating more on uni? or i can still slack until week4 or 5 hehe.

And whats this feeling of emptiness again? i dont know whats happening to me, i feel like i've returned to my old self, quiet and stuffs, just what am i doing?.. i can only pray that this is only temporary.

Yes, believe it or not , i've lost 90% interest in basketball, been back for 2 weeks and ive only played once so far, ive given up on improving myself while my height is still the same, i need to grow taller? whats wrong with height in life anyway? height gives people more confidence and is probably the most sought trait in life , well atleast for shorter people like me anyway. so taller people before u comment on us, please think like short people once in a while.

Come to think of it, ive had quite a few conflicts with tutong people a few weeks back in brunei, whats going on? Immaturity explains it all, despite their age, they still act, think and talk like kids, i dont blame them though, i guess thats in their blood and how things have always been and how they grew up. Ah, let things be as it is and its best not to deal with them through negiotiation anyway as it is the very thing they lack. Let them have their fun and i will have mine, so i have found out the place i thought i belonged to is not true.so where do i belong to anyway? where can i find this place i can trully call home?, somewhere i will be appreciated for what i am, for what i am trying to achieve, cared for and thought for? and so , i continue seeking for a place that i can call 'home'. and as for my love life,it gets so complicated that i dont know whats going on anymore too! how ironic eh? when it used to be so empty and it became so active i cant even keep up with it. , ah i just wanna let it be jian dan ai (simple love) haha...

If possible , i dont want to close my eyes right now, not even a blink, i dont want to miss a part or moment of this time, the present today eventhough it may be dull but it is something we cannot turn back to see tomorrow. Let the good times roll!

-Sou Wei-

Sunday, February 24, 2008

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Hello everyone, chinese new year is officially over but i still get a few ang pao's anyway :D , Yes Yes Yes, what happened to me in the past few weeks? ill just highlight a few key events, me and hao went down to miri on last friday and we met up with hui wen, a long lost classmate and friend, she left brunei in 1998 or was it 1997 (when her mom passed away) so, like, its almost 10 years we never met and how did we meet again? "Friendster" , amazing! me and hao were clicking on my friend's friend list and saw "hui wen", sounds familiar! and we couldnt believe it, but it was really her! so we asked her out since she happily gave us her number in malaysia. we asked ah chai and chee boon out as well and so, there were four of us guys, and her haha, feels strange but it was great, shes quite pretty now although i am not really interested and the other 3 guys were somewhat interested in her especially Ah chai, he asked me 3 times if hui wen was coming...lol... well, we talked quite abit and me and hao were happy since she remembered both of us, pity ah chai and chee boon, she says she doesnt remember them, haha.


ANyways ! The actual purpose of the trip to miri was just to go out and have fun , and so we did, on friday night we went to "halo" a music cafe , its a franchise from west malaysia, the one we went to in miri wasnt that good although i did like one of the singers, his voice is pretty good, i liked the "ai hen jian dan" he sang and i forgot what was the other song but it was decent. Then on Saturday night, boi boi joined us, so six, actually 7 of us, me, hao, chee boon, ah chai, ah kang(my cousin), ah fong(my cousin) and boi boi , we went to the Miri "REDBOX" but its called "REXBOX" i always hate it when they use names of famous brands and change it abit just to boost its business!

We sang from around 10 to about 1.30 , it was crazy, i myself sang more than 40songs! songs worth mentioning is Dragon Din Tei(Numa Numa Yei song) , i also sang the titanic song ! haha, it was soo GAYY i mean all GUYS ahah..we couldnt find Cao Ge's songs so we didnt sing his songs(damn it!), but we sang alot of Jay Chou's and Li Sheng Jie's, We finally heard ah chai sang "Duo Shi ni de cuo"(its all ur fault) and "Wo Shi Nu Shen"(i am a girl), his all time trademark songs since 1999 haha, me and chee boon combo-ed "Xin Tai nuan"(heart too soft), also Chee boon solo-ed "zui jing"(lately), me and hao finally got to sang "Liu Lei Shou xin" since it was really hard to find the Karaoke of that song and sang it we did, so emo~ haha and me and hao also sang hao's favourite song ! su yong kang's sorry, i cant believe it, i could sang the same key with hao and it was good. Then we also sang alot of english songs and a few malay songs, Basically, it was a great night! we head back for brunei on sunday and we had to rush to bandar, i went to hao's place , played basketball with his friends then went for a movie with hao's girlfriends, then finally went home~

Oh Yes, and i got new spectacles too D:, 4 more days till i head back to melbourne, or actualy five, since ill be stopping at singapore for a day..

Is it me or i just realised how hard it is to understand what i just posted? my brain's not working properly ! hope you guys can understand what i just posted !:D

Monday, February 4, 2008

Specially for..

Dear readers, i would like to point out that this post is specially dedicated to Gerald Wei Shen and my Mom, he is still a mysterious kid to me as i hardly know him, but most of the time i see him as a playboy and he certainly doesnt mind me seeing that way, which is good. Then again, you would ask me, why of all the people i could choose from and i had to dedicate one post to him? Good question. I am starting to know this guy better and he isnt quite the playboy as i thought he was but i think he is just another average guy who hungers for more and extreme flirts. Gerald Wei Shen told me he had the shock of his life this week, i asked him what it was but he didnt told me anyway but from the muscle strains on his face and head , i could conclude that it is a complicated matter, however not one i should concern myself with though! :)


24 days till Chinese New Year, ops! i meant 24 days till i head back to melbourne for another semester, and correction that CNY will arrive in 2 days or 1? well whatever, doesnt really matter...it has always been the same ...and as i get older, my red packets get smaller, but do i really care about the money i get during CNY? come to think of it, i never really got to use them, even when my parents gave me quite a big sum of money for a small kid like me i always had them kept it for me and i never really used them. and its Been 18 years and i have never bought anything thats more than $50 without asking them well, unless its clothes and only recently my record was only RM$100 something for a pair of pants :P


My Cousin's Girlfriend is coming on the 15th Feb. i believe, and how exciting and i really look forward to welcoming her to brunei and show her around although theres nothing too much about haha, then again we've always told her about our stories in brunei typically those events in tutong and interesting characters in tutong and how i would often say that every tutong-ian is unique and special in their own way.If she comes, it would be something of "Words became reality" or some sort of thing. my cousin and i call her P.L or short form for Pei Lee haha. She has been very nice and helpful to me when i first came to melbourne and to be honest , she has an exellent character and wonderful personality and we met her mother too, she was as funny as hell for an old lady, great to have fun with and she told us she was a Fan of the guy who sang "Negarakuku" my god, thats hillarious. Talk about old women who's into this sort of things, my mom wouldnt even let me sing that song and critise, scold and destroy in everyway she could if she ever heard that song in the house.


My Cousin said He'll probably bring P.L to Tutong for one night and i have a hunch that she might want to stay at H.P Halim Plaza for the night because she keeps saying its inconvenient to stay at my place, jeez! dont worry though, i will make sure she stays overnight at my place! :D and my cousin wants to take her to empire too and spend another night tere, that makes it two nights in brunei, great! thats enough to know brunei inside out haha, and hes invited us over too, even better! wohoo, i get to swim(although thats not my real motive), i just want to show her around brunei :D yeah!


I wish i could write a resolution for my brother but unfortunately, i cant, i have always seen him as "Zhai Nan" or those guys who spend most of the time at home and i hope he could change that, yes everyone says theres nothing wrong being zhai nan but!! he seriously needs to go out more and see the world outside and learn how to socialize better as i have gone thru the same that he is going thru right now and ofcourse, his brother knows best! oh wait..but most importantly..he should seriously be more hardworking and improve on his studies first, which i have always tried to help by teaching him but i always ended up arguing with him and doing his homework for him, which means i failed as a teacher already :'( ah wells...

My mom, has been nothing short of a double volcano lately, shes been bursting out her anger whenever she feels like and on whoever she feels like without having consideration to others at all, well ofcourse that is nothing new but this time, its EXTRA angry-ier. Why is my mom like this? everyone else dont have their moms scold them without a reason except me, i studied with extra caution i am concluding that my mom is the fierce-est of them all in her family, she even scolds her elder sisters, shame on her, everyone knows her for her "Angry Rage" when shes in a bad mood. Even my dad is also a victim of my mom, although my dad said shes never like this when he just met her but my dad hinted that maybe he treat her too well and loved her too much that he spoilt her and she took advantage of that. My dad always says we can never change her anymore as for example, if a seed tree is planted, you could only change it and adjust it while it is still young, if the tree is fully grown and a really old one, you cant change, u cannot change the shape of the tree, that is also the same...my mom has grew up like this so i cant do anything about it. Then again, i shouldnt always look at someone that way because of their weakness, for everything that has a bad side, it certainly has a good side as well, we shouldnt look at people badly just because they are 'bad' at somethings, instead we should just live with it as we ourselves have to look at ourselves in the mirror and say "hey..im not perfect too, i also have my weakness". Another reason why i should continue living like this is maybe perhaps because she is my mother? i should be thankful for her because if it wasnt for her, i wouldnt be here typing all this, i would not have came to this world. And ofcourse if you're ever reading this mom, im sorry if i ever offended you mom but everytime if i ever did, it was a big mistake and it always hurt me to do those things, just like most people would say, you're the only and greatest i'll ever have and i respect you for bringing me up to me i am today althogh i only take the good things from you haha..although i stil dont like you scolding people for no reason.please dont be angry at me but that is what i feel.


And the last but not least, me , i have been a punch bag for everyone recently, they like to throw whatever shit at me, vent their anger at me for no reason, i may appear OK outside but i am dying inside, but i need to be strong ...i need to live on with this...the good things will come after the bad ones..i know it will, and it shall..

I know its not easy trying to change one's self but i will keep trying...with enough courage and confidence, i know i can do it...life is wonderful..


"The Ending of a story is the Beginning of another." The journey is still long, and i need to continue moving forward...i want to be stronger than life...i want to fullfill my dreams(realistic ones).... no matter what shit others say or rain on me, let them say what they want...Does a new year really mean a new start? perhaps everyday is a new start, every hour, every minute, every second...and everytime..that is a new start....


One of these days i wanna go to the beach and relax there, armed with a pen, a notepad and my ipod loaded with sentimental and instrumental hits, what a great feeling it would be! the calmness, the breeze blowing at me, and write whatever that would be in my mind and preserve the moment although i wish someone would be with me though...nevertheless...ah well..


Thanks for reading! You're impressive if you're read this far! :P
i had fun typing this all out and feel so much better!, i just cant keep it in me, and i found out words could tell my story and it did...im going to continue watching titanic later which i was watching halfway last night and fell asleep watching it :D yes! i didnt watch it when it came out 11 years ago waat a shame! but today i will watch it!


Take cares and have a fantastic Chinese New Year eventhough some of you may not be celebrating but do have a great time!


-Sou Wei-

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

天使

feeling a good mood tonight and thought ill do something random, i only realised how simple the song "天使" by Mayday's Lyrics but i really like it though :) especially the chorus.

你就是我的天使 保护着我的天使 从此我再没有忧伤
你就是我的天使 给我快乐的天使 甚至我学会了飞翔

飞过人间的无常 才懂爱才是宝藏
不管世界变得怎么样 只要有你就会是天堂

像孩子依赖着肩膀 向眼泪依赖着脸庞
你就像天使一样 给我依赖 给我力量

像诗人依赖着月亮 向海豚依赖海洋
你是天使 你是天使 你是我最初和最后的天堂


oh right, today i had a haircut, and i came back at 6 from bandar and after dinner and a nice warm bath, i went to sleep at 9.30 and woke up at 11...i'm still quite tired because i slept at 6 am earlier today...i dont know if i feel silly staying awake this late, but i believe this is really what i want to do :) ni shi tian shi ~ ni shi tian shi ~ ni shi wo zui chu he zui hou de tian tang ~

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Resolutions 2008

Hello everyone! my resolution list is finally out for the new year haha, it's not much and simple but still something i wish to improve myself on
(i) work harder
(ii) improve my patience
(iii) improve myself as an elder brother and treat my brother better

and Thank you god, if you are out there for what i have been given, i will continue to cherish and work harder and maybe someday achieve finally what i want.

The only thing i fear is of me breaking my own promise, the promise i promised to myself i would be patient and work my way to what i want.

CNY is closing down and my holidays are cut short too , i hope the new semester turns out fine and look forward once again returning to Brunei.

Cheers
-SW-

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Happy New Year everyone..but..

It's a New Year but nothing has changed...and it turns out...it is a continuation of yesterday..When was my last blog entry? same old me. I am now finally able to enjoy my holiday after staying at miri for close to 2 months, i worked at shinyang as a technician, i dont believe i learnt alot but i cant say i didnt learn anything either.

It's a New Year, how about time for a change? Resolutions you say? Yes, i still have to work harder in everything i do, i want to be better in every way;academically,career,sports and everything else and most importantly , i want to be a better person. I caught a glimpse of the future every now and then, and im pretty sure it will come to us soon, its just a matter of time.

That's all for now , i cant get anything out of my mind to type here..Till the next post then.